Aug. 30 2006

Life changes....and then hopefully YOU grow up!!

Well the house is finally quiet, the kids are in bed asleep and I finally have some quiet time to myself where I can sit down and write. There has been so much going on around me that I had to take a step back and take a deep breath in and let it all go and I mean all go. :)

The last month I have learned so much about myself that sometimes its scary. I have been in a place that my feelings are so real that I have not been able for once to run away from them. I can truly say that I know who I am once again. I think for awhile I lost who I was not completely lost me but did not always put myself first in the things that I have truly wanted. As much as I can say I have truly been blessed this past year 1/2 now this is the year that its MY turn to receive what I truly want and nothing is going to hold me back.

No I am far from perfect and I can say that I have made mistakes just like everyone else has but that is what makes me who I am...I can say that I am not yet the woman that I want to be but I am getting so close and its about damn time!!...When I left Utah I left the DRAMA and the PAST behind me as I was about to start a whole new life. Only very few selected people who I still remain close to know exactly what I mean and who I am.

I can say that I have seen tru colors of people, people who pretend that they are your friends when really they are doing things behind your back that no friend would EVER do..and they wonder why there relationships arent perfect I can say kharma is a bitch and I will leave it at that. We live and we learn and I can say the people who are no longer a part of my life are for many reasons either you brought drama to my life, you are drama or you plain lied and deceived me. I dont have the time nor energy for that anymore.

I can say also especially the last couple of weeks I have learned to appreciate my mom so much more and all that she did for me. Its been an interesting last month and I will also say that I have learned to appreciate someone else just a tad bit for all that she does since in someways she did do it alone. I know who she is and thats all that matters.

I am never going to change the person that I am for anybody. I know who I am and I know what I want to become. Its time for a change and I can say its about damn time!! Like I said before Life Happens, Life Changes and hopefully YOU GROW UP!!